Wednesday, December 7

trance

A hypnotic, cataleptic, or ecstatic state...
Detachment from one's physical surroundings, as in contemplation or daydreaming...
A semiconscious state, as between sleeping and waking; a daze.

i'm a child of the universe and the world is my playground. (warning: more insane thoughts below)

I felt that something big was ahead of me. I dreamed that i'll be doing great things. I wanted to change the world, my family, my life... myself. It was all a dream. What I have learned the last 6 weeks some people would never have learned in their lifetime. I know I know, you’re thinking this sounds all too dramatic… but the truth is, it just is.

I never was religious nor spiritual… not at all. I had always been this analytical, matter-of-fact kind of person. If I was uncertain, I am most unlikely to get swayed right away. But then again, I often thought I was open-minded… up until I came across something that was beyond my comprehension, something that protests every logical thought in me. We often dismiss a lot of things as ‘weird’ only because we deny ourselves of truly exploring that realm. Or if I may be blunt, our narrow minds and superficial lives paralyzes our innate ability to comprehend. If you look around, the world really is bigger than you can imagine- now we have heard of this so many times, but have we really thought about it? Have you?

A parallel universe they say. What do they exactly mean by that? I fuss over and pray to God that my favorite pair of designer shoes goes on sale this season, while at that exact moment a 6 year old kid somewhere in Iraq prays to the heavens as he bleeds to death from 8 gun wounds – that’s what it means. As we go on our lives, the other part of the world tries to recover theirs… if I actually try to count and analyze just how many people there are in this world, on this parallel universe… I am humbled by the realization that I am merely a fraction of something much, much bigger than me.

Yes, I never thought about it. I’m not ashamed to admit that. My open-mindedness goes only as far as cultural norms, the constraints held by our religious society, ridiculous idealism with regards to the sanctity of marriage, individualism, dating, sex, and fashion do’s and don’t. But we live to learn. And to learn means humbling yourself enough to accept that there are things you don’t know; things that are beyond your knowledge, education, life experiences, social status… or even way beyond the capacity of what your mind can grasp. But you accept it anyway. Because we’re human, and we have limitations… to simply profess that we rule this planet is absurd-
I bet you can make God laugh at that thought.

Spirits, third eye, sixth sense… movie titles to me. If this is a parallel world, if this is a parallel universe of different dimensions, different time zones, different lives, creatures and souls… why not spirits? Why not the unseen? I only believe in a few things… I believe there is an almighty God and I believe people come into your life to leave some kind of imprint on you- Now, I believe this too, may be God’s way.


“You’ve only lived 22 years in this world, who are you to say that such things which have been written and told way before you were born is of no existence? These stories have been around longer than you. When the time comes, you too will pass... people may have not seen you live, but it doesn’t change the fact that you did. And a story about you and your life goes on.” - this is by far the biggest imprint I’ve had.

I believe in possibilities now. I believe that there are things on this world I will never figure out, things that I can’t prove by reading textbooks or searching the internet. Uncertainty is a matter of comprehension; doubt is a matter of faith. I am just as uncertain as you are if the spiritual world, the kingdom of heaven (or the dark side if you'd like to call it) even existed, but I don’t doubt that in time it will all be revealed to me.

That makes all the difference.