coping with melancholy.

Although it can be self gratifying to wallow in self pity, it can also be mentally unhealthy. So i try to distract myself with accomplishing something productive... i remember a suggestion daddy mentioned a few weeks ago...i pace relentlessly in my head to encounter my wildest and simplest of daydreams, tracked them down and captured them in full detail. Things i must and want to do preferably before i settle down (not any time soon) that would further fulfill and enrich the existence i behold and bring upon character a worldly knowledge..

so here goes.

1. be able to pursue a career where my true passion lies
2. learn to play at least one musical instrument (the ipod don’t count)
3. finish reading every book on Oprah’s List
4. enroll in an art class (and finish it this time!), creative writing and fashion journalism
5. bathe in milk and honey after a seaweed facial and a chocolate body scrub (happening soon!!!)
6. have a place I can entirely call my own
7. be on a cruise ship
8. bunjee jump
9. sky dive
10. go on a euro trip – to travel all by myself to a foreign country without a familiar face or structure for thousands of miles on end. Never ending possibilities. Swept wherever direction my feet leads me to- France; gaze upon the masterpieces of my inspiring genius of choice Leonardo da Vinci in the hallways of the Louvre. Italy; laze in awe on a gondola at the rich historical structures Venice has to offer, transformed in time.
11. donate to an orphanage or livelihood program
12. learn any form of self defense, which also means I should try and forget that my stepdad’s a lawyer
13. learn to speak French and Mandarin
14. run around under the hard pouring rain on an open field (not in this country tho, i'll drown in baha!)

15. scuba diving, feed a shark- if there’s a good enough guarantee I’m not the bait!
16. write a column for a newspaper or a fashion magazine
17. ride an elephant and camel
18. watch an Opera
19. mardi gras, definitely on my list (please let this be soon)
20. walk on the ledge of the great wall of china
21. party in Ibiza (again, please god let this be soon)
22. make snow angels and have a snowfight
23. live in Seoul for a month, strange I’ve always wanted to.
24. road trip! Yay! Now all I gotta do is learn how to drive, get a license and a car! Wow. So do-able <-- sarcasm goes here.
25. sit in the belly/smack middle of a windmill and watch it turn
26. ride a big ass motorcycle down a highway as fast as my racing heart and rationality shall allow, and bitchslap the driver once it’s done.
27. be a chocolate taster for a day
28. listen to Beethoven’s moonlight sonata played on a piano
29. find a cozy spot to sit in Central Park a few hours and with the company of a good red wine, observe the diverse variety of people pass by. So movie-ish I know. :)
30. learn how to cook