to an end.

You get caught up in a moment, dazed in laughter and the joy within every second you spend. It's an escape, a freedom to not care about the world or about the people around. Consequences are nothing but a blur, your actions are mere causes of such strong impulses-- thoughtless and drastic at times...

It was an escape for me as it was for you. I was running away from falling in love and you.. longed for something new.

I thought I loved you. I thought I did.. but then I realized, I never really knew love.. I never knew of accepting or of holding on. All I knew is you came to me and I loved the everyday happiness that you bring. I guess I wasn't ready for more.. I didn't know what I was asking for. You have a past that you can't change and i have a future that I can't give up nor let go of. We are too different. I am too different. You can't run with me towards what's to come if you'll always have something to look back on-- I wasn't sure if I wanted to be a part of that.


Maybe if I had loved you enough.. maybe if all this had been real.